He told me he was not looking for a relationship & instead of hearing what he said, I decided he would change his mind.
It will be different with me.
He will change for me.
I can fix this.
I can save him.
I like a challenge.
I was raised by someone emotionally distant and this is me, replaying my patterns.
Because I am too afraid to truly be in a relationship and finding emotionally distant people is the way to keep myself safe. In other words, the emotionally distant one is me.
Because I don’t really believe I am worthy of being loved so this seems to be the best I can do.
Because the flashes that are good are amazing and feel like such a rush and before I know it they’ve become the fix.
Because being in and out and the yes and the no equal drama and drama is what I think love is. No drama/no passion, right? (Wrong.)
Because if I could just adjust this one thing, he would be perfect for me.